All these days just waiting for the next
Got caught in the 'what if's' stuck inside my head
Worst thoughts filled a notebook right beside my bed
I was trying so hard but I never had a chance
Nowadays I just fade, keep falling in my ways
Staying strong, wanna fall but I gotta carry on
All this ache in my heart it could never be enough
Every time I wanna give up I think about my mom
Run into my room see my skin turning gray
All this pain that I felt goes to everybody else
I cannot let it happen I will keep it for myself
This pain will be used to create something great
Understand I'm not shit but someday you'll know my name
I don't do this for the money, I don't do this for the fame
But this shit is all I got, contemplate then I waste